.. .: :: Francesca's delirium :: :. ..

Don't worry I am not that blue! First off, those days don't last forever (thanks God!) and when they're over I feel much, much better. Thanks to all the lovely friends who worried about my mood. Unluckily, it changes very often and suddendly. I am just getting used to it, and I am learning that when I am too depressed I'd better avoid any human being ^_^Anyway, Leila, Kate and any worried friends, remember that I survived Engineering and I promised myself nothing else could make me feel that bad! I promised :)

This crazy summer with the most unpredictable weather ever is both killing and exciting me... Maybe this is an other step leading to complete madness, anyway I am more and more sleepless! Nevertheless, I don't have enough energies for my hobbies: I have sites to update, manga to read, anime episodes to watch and emails and letter to write, besides drawings to make!
I can't believe I am postponing so many activities I LOVE to do.
But on the other hand, I spend at the graphic studio a lot of time, doing things I like to do, and when I arrive at home at supper time I don't feel like turning on my computer very much!Don't worry fans of mine (hahaha am I talking to myself?) I will find more energies! I will never abandon my cyber- dreamworld!!!

Last Saturday night I was very sad because I was alone while my sister invited many people for dinner at home. I had no place to go, so I went alone downtown. I ate a big ice cream (I think I am eating ice cream every day!!!) and I saw a very young band performing great music on the road (The Final Countdown, Jump, Johnny B. Goode, We Will Rock You...). I envied them a little, and I enjoyed listening to their performance very much. Then, I found out that the shops were open because it was the first day of the sales time. So there were many people around! I was very happy! And I met a lot of people I hadn't met for years! This usually makes me overjoyed, especially when I meet people I respect, admire, like.
This is the case of Silva, teacher of mine at the primary school.She is a very original and creative person, and this is enough to make me like her. Anyway, she is a fan of me as a writer... When I was a child, she used to ask her students to write a short story every week. In her opinion, I was very talented. Honestly, I have never believed in myself, and I have never been too interested in writing. My dream has always been drawing and painting. Anyway, the fact that this woman after more than 15 years still remembers me so well, and that she still remembers the stories I used to write... well it makes me feel so... encouraged!
I told her about the Engineering nightmare and about the new stage. She strongly recommended me to follow the new path, because she always knew Engineering would kill me.In August, she will move but I have her telephone number and I must see her before she leaves. She told me she is happy that I didn't lose completely that light in my eyes and the energies I used to have. Not many people ever touched me that way.
I have never felt so lucky before! It's funny... I think that teachers have been so important in my life!

It's incredible, an unexpected thunderstorm arrived. I hope tomorrow the weather will be perfect because I MUST go to the biggest event ever in Trieste: the ISLE OF MTV FESTIVAL. I am waiting for this concert so impatiently and for so long that I would be shocked if I would miss it for any reason. It is expected that ten thousands people will arrive from Italy and Europe, the weather CAN'T ruin everything! Please, crazy weather, don't do that to me!!!