.. .: :: Francesca's delirium :: :. ..

Yes! It's almost over!
I have never desired the short Christmas break as much as this year!
First off, I want to wish you all
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Only one friend comments my blog regularly, and a couple of them drop a line from time to time, but it often happens to me that a friend tells me that s/he reads my blog or visits my site. Well, to all my shy or lazy friends, best wishes and a big hug! :)
I will not complain about the always decreasing number of visitors of my sites, I really don't care! For the moment, I want to go on. Maybe tomorrow I will change my mind, but it's so useless to worry about it. I love the Christmas atmosphere and I want to be happy. And I will probably find the time to work at my sites during these days! I also have some projects for some new sites, but I don't know if I will make them... I wonder how long I can go on without sleeping ^_^

Actually I am a little worried for my father's health, even though I want to think positive. The problem is that he hides everything even to my mother. We don't even know why he goes to the doctor and what medicines he has to take. He gets angry when we ask questions. This is the thing that upset me most, because he cannot go protecting us forever in such a stupid way.
I don't mean his health conditions are necesarily bad (actually I do hope he's just tired of the heavy houseworks he's doing in the new house): he hides everything, from a simple cold to my grandma's cancer (my mother's mother: she died when I was a child and he told us only AFTER her funeral, so that we didn't even go...).
Sorry, I want to be optimistic. But I would feel better if I was told what's happening around me. I am already a new Peter Pan, and my father's behaviour doesn't help me to grow up ç_ç

Anyway, what's that sad post? No way! I want to write happy things!
I want to thank all the GARASU NO KAMEN FANS who wrote me, all the PEN PALS who sent me greeting cards and little presents by snail mail (forgive me, I sent my greeting cards on Monday and Wednesday so they will not arrive in time *LOL*), and all my long-term pen pals, and the recent ones... And KATE, GO, LEILA, thanks for your patience!!!
Also, a big I AM SORRY to the nice people who are still waiting for a mail from me...
BEA and MARIA CRISTINA if you are reading this, please accept my apologies... After all it's Christmas ^_^ I will write you during the break!
A special hug to some people who will never read this post: MARCO, ALIKO. I am sorry this will not be a too happy Christmas. Wish I could do something more than being sorry. ALIKO, I hope we can meet soon again. I will kill you with tons of words ^_^
Oh, no. I am sorry I cannot really mention you all. There would be a long list to people I am grateful to ^_^ If you can't read your name here, please don't be disappointed!!!
By the way, one more person must be mentioned now: dear YUKIKO are you reading this? I hope so! You really surprised me, after such a long time! Thank you! Your message moved me! And, thanks to you, I saw Macoto-Sensei's illustrations. I am a big fan of him now! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!
ROSI-CHAN, VAL, HARUCHAN, and all the Garasu no Kamen SMO Forum girls... Thank you for existing! ^_^
SHARI I'm so glad you feel better sweet sister!!
Ok, I must stop here. It's a too long time I've been typing this post!


There are some movies I want to see after Xmas:
Memoires of a geisha --> I loved the book so much! I can't wait to see the movie!
Chronicles of Narnia --> Hehe that's my Peter Pan syndrome
Chicken Little --> I can't resist ^_^
...And I am still waiting for the new version of PRIDE AND PREJUDICE!

I love theatre more and more. I am happy to watch the plays. But I have to say that ballet is conquering my heart now. I have been to see THE NUTCRACKER by Tchaikovsky at Teatro Verdi. It is my favourite ballet ever, I love the music and I often listen to the CD. The ballet by Latvian National Opera Ballet was also marvellous. I can't wait to see THE SWAN LAKE and SLEEPING BEAUTY by Moscow Ballet 'La Classique' at Teatro Rossetti. Both the ballets will be in January. I can't wait to see also BOLLE AND FRIENDS in February.

Well, as you can see I am not talking about my stage because I want to be positive this time *LOL* In April I will be unemployed for sure, but the only thing I can do now is concentrating on what I can do at the studio now and learn as much as I can. God please help me for my future ^_^

Again, BEST WISHES FOR HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
Let's hope the new year will be better than the last!
Lots of love!

I'm so tired! An other busy day is over, I am just relaxing at the computer for half an hour, and then I have to prepare my back pack for tomorrow!
I'm finally having a break!
A long weekend in Napoli, at Cecilia's! I really can't wait!
It will be the second time I've visited it, and I hope this time the weather will be better. In any case, I am sure I will enjoy my time there, and I will relax. Her family is incredibly calm and nice (or my family is incredibly noisy...?) and her hobbies are my hobbies.
So, no doubt I will enjoy myself there.
Cecilia is one of the people I have to thank for I did not close my site yet. In fact she wrote me for the first time after visiting my site ^_^
Updating my site is more and more difficult for me, the number of visitors is decreasing and decreasing, and my energies are not enough.
But, I have just made the big monthly update yesterday (I went to sleep at 3 a.m., that's why I feel like I'm in a coma)... It's funny, every time I want to give up, I get a message from a fan of Garasu no Kamen and I change my mind. ^_^

I've been at the cinema recently. I've watched the 4th episode of Harry Potter. Good special effects, but I didn't like it. The plot was not well developed, I think it's the worst movie among the 4 ones.
Anyway, I enjoyed it and I loved a few scenes.
Hermione and Ron are always great ^_^

There is a movie I MUST see before the end of the year. It's Memoires of a Geisha. The book was one of the best books I have ever read in my life, I must watch the movie as well. There are many chances I will be disappointed, but I cannot resist ^_^

When will we have the new version of Pride and Prejudice in Italian cinemas? I am dying to see it, not because I like the cast, but because I will never be fed up of that story! ^_^

I've bought a great manga: 11 nin iru by Moto Hagio. It is the first book by this great mangaka which has been translated into Italian. I cannot wait to read it, but I will have to wait to be back home. I can't believe December can be so busy and stressing. Even at work I don't have a second to breathe! Please stop this crazy world for a few minutes!!!!!

Well, I have tons of reasons to be happy.
There is only one thing I regret.

I will not be able to go to a funeral. Don't misunderstand me, I hate funerals, but I feel bad missing it. The father of Marco, a school mate of mine, died for a cancer which was diagnosed too late, maybe 2 months ago.
I remember I used to meet the man and his wife in the bus until a very few days ago, and now I can't believe he's gone!
Marco's mother was a colleague of my mother's, and I have known Marco since the kindergarten.
His father could be my father, and since I ran the risk of losing my mother some years ago, I can immagine how Marco feels. I will phone him when I am back from my short trip. My family will go to the funeral and they will apologize for me. I'm sorry Marco, but the couchettes have already been booked and I have so seldom chances to have a break and to meet a friend.
I feel so bad, but I am sure they will understand.

Well, don't think I am a monster. It's not easy to repress my negative thoughts but if I want to survive I must look for some rays of light every day.
See you when I'm back from the beautiful and chaotic Napoli!