.. .: :: Francesca's delirium :: :. ..

HELLO WORLD!!!!
The sleepless lazy blogger is back!!!

Today (almost yesterday) is 1 month I have been in London as a job hunter!
I came back to London after a Summer break in Italy on August 24th. Already 1 month!
And how many things happened!!!

Well, this has been a good day. I have not signed anything yet, but it seems that I got the job! The only interview I had in person (and without a recruitment agency) was successful after all. So, since Wednesday I will start working as a Junior Web Developer. Before you ask, when I was told about the salary I could not hear properly because of that stupid reminder that beeps at every minute of conversation (I have just deactivated it) and I thought it would not sound nice to ask to repeat :)
Anyway, I like the small and relaxed company and I think I will learn a lot, which is exactly what I want!!!

What a pity I am too tired to jump! And anyway everybody is sleeping in the flat :)

What else can I say? I hope I will manage to join the gym this year, because I really feel the need of doing something especially for my back. Spending my life at the computer has some side effects :p

I am so excited that in the last 2 days I have finally renewed the layout of my favourite web site Maya no Garasu no Kamen.
The problem is that I have Internet Explorer 7, and it seems that the menu does not work with Explorer 6. I added some scripts I found in the internet, but how can I see if it works? Anyone can help me? Please!!! Test the web site in IE6 or less and let me know if it works! I truly hope it does!!!

I have to go to bed now. Tomorrow I will try to see if I can arrive at my job place at 9 without a nervous breakdown. I cannot believe it takes 1 hour and 1/2 for such a small distance!!!

Oh my.
As soon as the stressful situation became a little less stressful, because I finally had my pretty pretty single room, my body started making things more difficult.
I guess I have a sort of allergy, maybe to dust. It started on Sunday like a lot of spots, similar to spider bites, spread all over my feet. I thought it was because I spent some time in the park almost barefoot lying on a park bench (anyway this was not the first time I had done something like that and I had never had problems before). But the following day my arms, legs and hands and even my face started being covered with these dots, sometimes very itchy. I went to the GP and she told me:
-Maybe it is chicken pox.
I cannot really afford staying in my bed waiting to recover from chicken pox, so I said:
-No, I think this is a sort of allergy.
The doctor then:
-Well, I will prescribe some antihistamine (medicine against allergies).
No comment... :)
Anyway, it helped a little bit. At least it is not itchy and it is not spreading any more. Still, I wonder what happened. Why do I always have skin diseases? I hate them!

I should take a break and relax. But I cannot, because I am spending and spending money and there is no income yet... Sigh!
So, I am cutting a lot of bad figures, like stupid misunderstandings during some telephone interviews, and even worse, in some applications I sent as a demo link to my works the URL of THIS BLOG! I am not surprised my application was not even considered! What a shame... Hours and hours to write an application letter and then a stupid mistake like this!
Oh well, I cannot blame my blog. Some companies saw the right links but they were not interested anyway :p
Waah. No time for self-pity. I know that I can do better than some people who works as a web designer. I have not much experience, but I am more motivated than ever!!!
Please nice nice employers, do not make me fly back to Italy in a couple of months!
I know that the bakery next door is always looking for staff, but is it worth while to live in London to work in a bakery (and get up at 3 a.m.) for the minimum salary allowed by the law? Well, maybe next week I will consider that as well. Wish me good luck everyone, I need it badly!!! And good luck to you all too, everybody needs it after all :)
Cheers!!

Little by little, nice things are happening.
Well, ladies and gentlemen, since tonight I have my pretty pretty single room!!!
After one week of room sharing, finally the flat mate who had to move away did move away... I am so excited!

You should see my room. It is spacious and luminous as well. Moreover, it is MINE!!!
It is the first time I have lived on my own, paying for the rent.
It could be the last if I do not find a job as soon as possible haha
I do not care now. Let me enjoy this moment!

The area where I live now is not as beautiful as Muswell Hill, but it is still in North London, it is quite safe, and it is not far from my wonderful Golders Green!
My flat mates are all Polish, but they try to speak English with me. They are all nice and I am sure we will get on well together.

I am very tired now. I worked hard in the afternoon to move things around and clean.
Happy weekend everyone!

PS. Unluckily this year I do not have any digital photocamera. Sigh! There are so many things I would like to show you :(

PPS. Argh. This week is also my cleaning shift. Luckily I am happy for the new room :p

Gosh. Some days I just can't make it through the end of the day without feeling so close to giving it all up.
Exactly one year ago, I had a horrible time too. It was a change for the better anyway, so I guess I should just wish that this change will be for the better too.
I hate to complain that life is unfair, I think you're a loser when you say that.
I am using all my energies to believe that better times are coming.
Not only for me, but for my dearest Anna S. and for Cris & Andy. Oh and Ali needs som better luck too.
Thanks to those people who are so close to me in these days in spite of all their problems. I can't help being selfish and self-centered. :)
Lovely, lovely friends. Thank you!!!

Closing times - Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.