.. .: :: Francesca's delirium :: :. ..

Just to keep you shortly updated.
I had a nervous breakdown yesterday, I was so sick and nervous that I didn't go to work, I am mad at how badly my flat mates are managing this bed bugs thing and it's too many weeks can't sleep more than 2 hours in a row.
I almost moved yesterday, after a sleepless night and I panicked when I saw how many things I have and how difficult it will be to move out.
Anyway, I gave up at last and I am still there. I was not convinced about the room I wanted to move to. I wouldn't have been allowed to use the kitchen or washing machine!
I can't move out to the first empty room I find.
Oh... I would like to fly away at once!
But it seems like I have to train my patience. I can just pray God that bed bugs will not find me.
I am fighting against wind mills. Please wish me good luck!

Dear friends and visitors :)
I came back to London on the 30th of December and I found out that the internet account had been cancelled; the flatmates we pay for the rent were in Poland and mostly unreachable.
They came back after some time but we don't have internet yet.
Everything is unclear, they do not have a bank account and they say they are trying to open one, so that they can subscribe to a new internet account with an other company, since the previous one "misteriously suspended their account".
Worse than that, Anja and her boyfriend have found bedbugs (check wikipedia) and now I am obsessed by these insects I had never heard before. I couldn't sleep for many nights, I spent last weekend cleaning and inspecting my room completely and I had my flatmate who gets my money to fill with silicon all the gaps between the baseboard and the floor - but this is more to help me psychologically since they can hide in many other places.
The young couple who we pay for the rent insists than the house has been refurbished completely last years and most pieces of furniture are brand new and even the matresses. I quite believe so, still the bugs exist and once they are in the house they don't mind if it's clean and new.
Also, the two claim they have never seen one and that we brought them because we are not clean and tidy. I am very clean and tidy, much more than all her family.
I don't know if the matresses are new, but they are covered with a plastic tissue so I thought it was great because they are easy to clean. Unluckily I found a cut in it and I didn't dare to think how many bugs can be inside.
Anyway, I sealed it with some tape and I managed to sleep last night.
After all, an other flat mate, Raphal, said he first found one in October ( but he didn't worry and he didn't bother to tell anyone until one night in January Anja and her boyfriend found something like ten in their bed) so I'm sure I have been bitten already in the past, but I don't think this is enough to make me feel tranquil.
I am thinking about moving again, but I am so stressed already and I don't really have time, moreover now I am so scared about using other people's mattresses... So I don't know when this all happen.
I hope I will have internet again (I am posting this message from my office), and well, happy new year anyway!