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Francesca
October 13th 1978
libra / earth horse
Trieste, Italy
London, UK
24/7 daydreamer
sweet teeth
pathologically shy
hopeless romantic
fond of art
desperately sincere
originality lover
looking for self-esteem
definitely confused
poet of colours
restless creative
seriously crazy
constantly moody
1% sense 99% sensibility
lonely soul
fan of crowds
silence worshipper
music addict
simply complicated

FAVOURITE...

Colour:: orange
Number:: 13
Job:: web designer
Hobby:: drawing
Books:: Jane Eyre (C. Bronte)
Village of Stone (Xiaolu)
Manga:: Glass no Kamen (Suzue Miuchi)
Versailles no Bara (Riyoko Ikeda)
Movie:: Lady Hawke
While you were sleeping...
BBC Drama:: Pride and Prejudice (1995)
Animation:: Anastasia
Painter:: Caravaggio
Kind of music:: almost all
Composer:: Tchaikovski
Stone:: opal
Flower:: purple rose
Environment:: seaside
Food:: Italian :)
Fruit:: strawberry
watermelon
Vegetables:: carrots
aubergines
parsnips
Tea:: lemon & ginger
peppermint

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MY NAME

The name of Francesca gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. It is far easier for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings through writing than verbally. You find pleasure in literature, in poetry, and in your ideals and will turn to them when you feel you have been misunderstood. You are deeply moved by the beauties of life, especially nature.

.. .: :: Francesca's delirium :: :. ..

(Oh, no! And she claims she is a web designer!)

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

So, apparently once again my first job interview is successful :)
I had 2 interviews in this small company yesterday and this morning I accepted their offer.
The worst offer in term of money but I liked the company and the people I talked to, and I have a feeling this is the least boring job among the ones I was considering.
I am a little anxious, but also excited.
I hope I'll have better luck!
Wish me all the best please :)

PS. A big hug to Kate, always there for me even if so far away!!!
PPS. Did you notice, the message board is there again. Thanks to all the IE user who informed me that they couldn't see it!

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

New trash template that was waiting for a long time.... But it took me ages to get internet again. And I even have to pay for half the price of the router that my flat mates will keep.
I'd better stop here. But the layout is cool :)

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Today is the 4th anniversary of my graduation.
And I am unemployed again!
I wish I could give you more details, the truth is that I was just told by the managing director something like half an hour before 6 pm of Monday 11th of February.
The company has no money and I became redundant. You know, the last employed is the first one who has to go.
The other employees were reassured that I will be the only one.
I cannot say I was surprised, I felt there was something going on. But I resisted and did whatever job they gave me, hoping better times would come.
Maybe they will, but in an other company.

So, all my projects to move out and even to start thinking about buying a house are cancelled. Apparently, you cannot plan anything in life.
As you might suspect, since today I finally have internet at home again. After 2 months... It was a never ending nightmare, and I was so annoyed because I will have to pay half the price of the router that will not belong to me. I decided to resist without internet until I could find a new room. Instead, since tomorrow (actually, today, after some hours of sleep) I need internet more than ever to look for an other job.

I thought I would cry, but I ran away from the office and went to the gym, and then Kirsten invited me for a drink after the gym. I will never thank her enough for that.
There is a chance that I will not shed a tear. And honestly, this scares me.
These 4+ months turned me into a privacy freak, silent and lonely, most repressed than ever. I cannot release the mix of bad feelings I keep deep inside... Emptiness, disgust, untrust, anger, desolation, weekness.
It's all dumbed in a foggy apathy. I am most of the time day-dreaming to escape reality. Some people from Italy think I am growing up thanks to these experiences. I am afraid I couldn't disagree more.

Once again I find myself in a 'nobody wants me' mode and I wonder what the hell I am doing in this place. My search for self confidence is postponed.
But tomorrow, already today, is an other day.
I hate melodramatic posts but I can't do better at 1.40 am after being fired out of the blue.
Don't worry, what doesn't kill me will make me stronger. And this is definitely not going to kill me.

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Tuesday, February 05, 2008

It seems that I will have to start meditating. And possibly buy a lock for my room.
I don't care any more what my flat mates say, I hate the fact that people can enter my room all the time.
Anyway, it seems that our neighbours, who live in the same house at the ground floor (separate entrance and back garden in common) found tons of bed bugs in the sofa.
They are so kind that they just dumped outside the house the sofa, children's toys, duvets, beddings and so on. The safest way to share bed bugs with us. How sweet.
On the other hands, it seems that in my flat they have the same behaviour. I wish I lived in a bunker sometimes.
I understand I have been lucky not finding bed bugs in my room (but I clean like a mand woman as often as possible and then I can spot them much more easily), but I don't think bringing infected cloths or beddings out of your door and next to someone else's can solve the problem.
Enough polemics for now.
I realized that the amount time needed to change house, unless you like to move often (and this is definitely not me) is incredibly big. So I cannot move right now, and I am not even sure if I will move.
Apart from bed bugs, some unwanted flat mates and no internet connection (that hopefully will arrive some day this week...), the rest is fine :)
I am not too sarcastic. You cannot imagine some houses I have seen. Aren't they ashamed of giving rooms like those for rent?
Most important, I met some weird men that could be my landlords and/or flat mates, so I thought that maybe I can manage the old man in my house better.
Last but not least, I have to give hospitality to my sister and in my current flat I can do it, while in the majority of flats I've seen, I cannot even invite a friend for one day :(
Have to go now. Thanks everybody for listening to my complaints all the time, and big big hugs to Cris, Cecy and Kate :)

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